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Thursday, June 16, 2016

Finally did it!

I'm below 160 for the first time in years.  It's a great thing.  Although slowed way down due to lack of motivation but who doesn't have that problem from time to time.  I'm just thrilled that I am making good choices and not gaining weight like crazy.  Still losing in fact.  So much going on around here and not much time to journal or blog.  I hope that after my two weeks of drill life can find a rhythm but I doubt that.  I'm constantly searching for a balance and rhythm without much luck.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

not gaining, not losing

The 21 day fix really did mess me up and I lost some motivation.  I am trying to get back to it.  I won't let my weightloss be derailed this easy.  However I am down with a fever tonight so no workout...
If I can get a workout in tomorrow, Friday and Saturday I will be happy with that.  I will reach my goals.  I'm thankful I haven't started putting weight back on.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016


So the 21 day fix was not for me.  I have returned the box an videos.  I was in so much pain I couldn't move.  I can't be on a program that makes me that sore.  So I took a few days to recover.  I was under the weather yesterday but I'm fully planning to run today.  I'm looking forward to getting moving.  I really didn't like taking all that time off but needed it to get better.  I can feel my depression worsening and I am sure it's connected to the lack of working out the last 5 days or so.  I dislike that I am this bad, and the weather isn't helping me either.  I'm glad I sent the videos back and am looking forward to getting back on track.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Day 2 of 21 day fix. Week 6?

Honestly I'm not sure what week I'm in.  But it's habit at this point for sure.  If I don't workout I miss it.  I started working out in the mornings with the 21 day fix so I could still run... but as yesterday proved I don't have the eating or strength to run and do the 21 day fix :(.  So I guess I'm on a small break and will start again in 19 days :).  I've gotten my calories up a little bit but not great.  I've been on such a bad roller coaster I'm struggling to rein it in.  My weight seems stuck, and my waist measurements seem stuck... but my pants and belt suggest otherwise.  So I'm thinking I'm losing weight or inches and I'm just not finding it.  At least I'm going to keep moving, and keep losing.  This is for the long term not a quick fix.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Going strong

Going to start the 21 day fix on Monday.  I ran on the treadmill for week 2 of the train like a mother training plan.  So I walked 4 mins and ran 2 mins on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Still debating on what to do tonight.  I'm supposed to run but running two days in a row is difficult for my shins.  I'm still moving down in the weight area and my clothes keep getting looser.  Today is a break from all food restrictions and I'm just enjoying movies and treats with my kids.  I am finding that I don't actually want most of the junk I got for them though.  A few cheetos puffs and a few mini milky ways.  I did indulge in pizza and soda :).  Balance right.  I also struggled to get my 10,000 steps on Tuesday and Thursday but I still lost a pound this week.  I'm glad I'm staying on track this time which is good and feeling great.

Monday, May 16, 2016

New treadmill

Got to do my first run/walk on my new treadmill tonight.  It was awesome and I'm so thrilled to be back to it again.  I really missed running.  I also did the one mile walk away the pounds with the kids.  We are signing up for the Hamilton 5k on June 4th.  I'm super excited about that challenge as well.  My 21 day fix kit shipped... So really I'm going to be in great shape to get in shape.  I need to come up with a meal plan for next week so I can get my grocery shopping done this weekend.  I'm so confident that I will reach my goals this time it's scary.  I picked this picture today because I feel like this is the phase I've come to.  It's an addiction now and I want to keep getting more results.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

First goal achieved

I reached my first goal of making weight (165) by May 14th for my Coast Guard stuff.  I'm super proud of myself.  I really feel like I've turned a corner.  I have confidence that I am going to reach my bigger goals this time.  I'm going to get healthy and fit.  I am excited, energetic, and ready.  My pants are getting looser.  I ran on the treadmill at the hotel this weekend.  It's a first for actually getting my workout in during a drill weekend.  I'm proud of myself for doing it.  Normally I beg off and just skip it.  But it's great to be moving.  It's been 4 weeks and I feel better and am still moving.  Which is great.  My next goal is to be at 155 by my two weeks which is June 27th.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Almost there

Saturday is the day I will get the stress of the CG off of my plate.  It will be nice to just focus on me and creating a healthy lifestyle rather than making a number on a scale for a job.  I'm going to work hard and get there.  I'm also looking at starting the 21 day fix.  Just trying to decide if I want to spend the money and if it's worth it.  It sounds like people are getting great results and the food choices are about making good choices with portion sizing instead of limiting and restricting which honestly just makes me crazy.  I can eat all the things I would normally as long as it fits in my containers.  If I understand correctly.  Also it will encourage eating at home more which is what I should be doing anyway.  So we will see.  It also has workouts which are kick butt I guess.  Beachbody workouts are usually pretty good.  Well I should get off the computer and get my workout done.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016


I have to say this is very true.  I thought the fitbit was just another gimick.  But I got one, and honestly will say that it has gotten me up and moving.  I have been finally dropping weight and working out consistently for over 3 weeks and I feel great.  So when I saw this picture on pinterest I new I had to put it on my blog.  I'm constantly checking my step progress and working to hit that daily goal.  It has shown me how much I wasn't moving and helped me start new healthy habits.  I even encouraged my coworker to get one and she is moving more too.  She also tells people how much it has helped her get moving.  So yes it could have ended up just another gimick.  But it really does help you get going.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Sunday end of week3

Feeling really good about my progress.  Feeling really good about my moving.  I got all 10,000 steps in everyday this week.  I'm at 6000 today and Sunday is my off day LOL.  But we have had lots of farm chores to do today.  I'm feeling like for the first time in a long time I'm going to reach my goals and lose this weight and get healthy.  Hubby bought me a treadmill, something I've been hankering for.  I think it's been 3-5 years I've been wanting one, because with three kids it makes it easier to get running.  And I love running.  It's a very basic entry level nordictrak but I'm excited at the idea of starting to run again.  I'm at the end of three weeks of working out consistently and the happy feeling is there.  Ya know the feeling good and happy feeling, the depression leaving the corners and flittering away feeling.  I want to hold on to this feeling and I really like that I can now start running, no excuses.  I feel confident I will reach my goals.

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Outside walk

So I made cookies for the neighbor.  We walked the 1.5 miles to her house to deliver them.  Took the kids on their bikes and the youngest ran/walked with me.  I actually ran some of, as well as I could with a plate of cookies.  On the way back I carried my 35 pound youngest for a little over a mile.  I did try to run a bit LOL, but it was difficult to say the least with her bouncing too.  I feel like even though my weight isn't dropping as fast as I would like to see it, I am getting stronger.  I have more endurance and I have more energy.  I'm also sleeping better at night.  Those pounds will come off.  I just have to keep moving and trying.  Each day is a new day to try again.  To keep going and get to my goals.  I have 9 days until I will reweigh for the Coast Guard.  I am sure some of that stress is helping to hold onto the pounds.  And I have finals next week.  Math I'm not as worried about, but my programming class sucks.
All the pictures I post come from pinterst, I save them in my fitness journey folder and then use them here.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Another Monday

I'm still going strong.  I'm feeling good about still moving.  Getting m 10,000 steps most days.  I will be honest Friday I fell asleep on the couch with my youngest.  I was apparently very tired.  It happens.  But I'm feeling good about my progress.  Not sure how I am doing on weight since my scale is all wonky, giving different read outs each time I get on. This picture for sure shows how I'm trying to focus.

Monday, April 25, 2016


Finding balance is probably the hardest part for me.  Eating enough, but not to much, but not to little.  Last week I was in the to little category for sure, so it made me grumpy.  I am working to get it up but I feel like I can't add carbs.  If I add carbs I usually start going over.  Plus with everything else going on in life, making time to get it all done is becoming a challenge.  So I am working on finding balance between eating crap and reaching my goals.  I had a sonic cheese burger last night, I love it :).  But I was also up a pound this morning.  I'm also not going poo like I should be if the truth be told.  Today I have consumed about 1000 calories but I had a shake for breakfast and pizza for dinner.... so will this set me back?  I don't know yet.  I just have to move my body and keep moving forward.  Not every day is going to be perfect.  But if I keep trying I will reach my goal.  It is a series of small steps in the right direction, no body reaches this kind of goal in a week or a day.  This is going to take months.  So finding a good rhythm now is only going to help me succeed going forward.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Making good progress.

Doing good.  I'm still missing my breads... yum but I resisted temptation today when the kids wanted bread I got them some but I did not partake.  I ate chicken breast and salad for dinner and did my shakes, apples and nuts for breakfast, lunch and snacks.  I am sure after weigh ins it will be easier to find a balance without the worry.  I still plan to make smart choices and hopefully by that point I won't want the carbs as much.  But a small bit of rice once a week won't be so scary LOL.  Of course once I hit my target for the Coast Guard I can relax too.  I'm feeling better and my pants are fitting better.  So that is good.  I want to be a good example and keep moving.  So far I have hit my 10,000 steps everyday except Sunday which is my day off.  I'm proud of that accomplishment.  I have also walked 2 miles with my video each day this week.  So that is 8 miles already this week.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Keep moving

That's the goal, just keep moving.  Guess it's a little like Dory, just keep swimming.  I am getting those 10,000 steps in, even though it's been a challenge.  I am enjoying the challenge.  I am getting a workout in each day, I might need to do two workouts to be able to get all my steps in each day.  I will for sure have to change something if I decide to bump my goal.  But for this month the step goal is good and getting me moving.  My food is decent.  All paleo and stuff :).  I even managed a salad tonight so I'm thrilled about that.  I am moving down on the scale so that is good.  I'm sure the CG will freak out if I lose to much but I don't really care.  I'm not being unhealthy.  I was being unhealthy with all the Dr. Pepper and the junk food before.  Cutting those really helps to shed pounds along with moving my butt.  Doing good with 6 miles (walk away the pounds videos) and 30,000 steps so far, or a few more.

Monday, April 18, 2016

Day 3

Well I guess technically Saturday was day 1.  So today would be day 3... Gosh who knows.
What I do know, I updated my motivation board, added goals and motivational phrases.  I worked out 30 mins today and walked over 10,000 steps according to my fitbit.  I really like having a fitbit, it's a great way to keep moving.  I need to up my calories though because at this rate I will burn out.  I'm not eating enough.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Same post over and over?

#Fitness #Motivation http://peoplewholift.com | awesome site for fitness models!: So looking over older posts and some just recently... I've said it alot that I was going to get moving... So the question really becomes, why will it be different this time?
Will I just quit once I make weight and am off the fat kid program?
Will I go back to being a fat slug?
Should I stop calling myself fat?  Probably but sometimes we need the truth to keep us moving.  What can I do to get different  results this time?
Motivational pictures all over the house?
Picture of current next to goal in the bathroom?
How do others stay motivated?
How do people keep from giving up?  Perhaps its time to take to the big world of FB or google and see what keeps people going... Because obviously I've said I was going to do this before... and failed.

To failures, and new beginnings!

I won't even try to make excuses.  I've neglected myself and my health for so long.  I keep telling myself that I will start tomorrow.  I know where I want to be, I know how I want to feel and look.  But I have such a hard time with the food part of being healthy.  I love food.  I also have an extremely busy life.  With 3 kids, a small family farm starting, 3 jobs (one being full time college), and a hubby that travels it doesn't leave a lot of hours in the day for me time and a lot of food on the go to try and get it all done.  But those are just excuses and I need to stop.  It finally all caught up with me last month for my Coast Guard weigh in.  I failed.  And now I have it hanging over my head.  It really stinks and is actually making me reevaluate my health.  I'm only 5'4", I shouldn't be creeping over 170 pounds.  I should be between 120 and 130 in all reality to be healthy.  And I shouldn't get winded walking 1/4 mile up my driveway :(.  My youngest fractured her tibia so I have to carry her everywhere right now.  I should be able to do this with ease.  I need to be strong and healthy to work my farm and animals even when hubby is gone.  I've let my depression and stress control my weight and eating habits for far to long.  I started this week.  I focused on just working out each morning, nothing to crazy just trying to get back into a routine and habit.  I did a walk away the pounds video each morning Tuesday thru Saturday.  Only 1 mile, but it's a start.  I bought a fitbit on Friday, so Saturday I set my 10,000 steps daily goal.  This week I will work on doing a 30 min video each morning and reaching my step goal each day.  I will also strive to make good healthy non carb related food choices.  If I cut sugars, carbs and soda I should make my 165 in May.  After that my goal is to be down to 34% body fat (per CG measurements/standards) by December 2016.  This will for sure be the hard one.  But I will measure each month at the start of the month, and I will work on it each day.  I will not make excuses anymore.  So I'm going to post each day, food, workout, thoughts and just keep a journal of sorts.  Maybe even post motivating pictures like I did before to help keep me going.