Return....

So the 21 day fix was not for me.  I have returned the box an videos.  I was in so much pain I couldn't move.  I can't be on a program that makes me that sore.  So I took a few days to recover.  I was under the weather yesterday but I'm fully planning to run today.  I'm looking forward to getting moving.  I really didn't like taking all that time off but needed it to get better.  I can feel my depression worsening and I am sure it's connected to the lack of working out the last 5 days or so.  I dislike that I am this bad, and the weather isn't helping me either.  I'm glad I sent the videos back and am looking forward to getting back on track.

Day 2 of 21 day fix. Week 6?

Honestly I'm not sure what week I'm in.  But it's habit at this point for sure.  If I don't workout I miss it.  I started working out in the mornings with the 21 day fix so I could still run... but as yesterday proved I don't have the eating or strength to run and do the 21 day fix :(.  So I guess I'm on a small break and will start again in 19 days :).  I've gotten my calories up a little bit but not great.  I've been on such a bad roller coaster I'm struggling to rein it in.  My weight seems stuck, and my waist measurements seem stuck... but my pants and belt suggest otherwise.  So I'm thinking I'm losing weight or inches and I'm just not finding it.  At least I'm going to keep moving, and keep losing.  This is for the long term not a quick fix.

Going strong

Going to start the 21 day fix on Monday.  I ran on the treadmill for week 2 of the train like a mother training plan.  So I walked 4 mins and ran 2 mins on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Still debating on what to do tonight.  I'm supposed to run but running two days in a row is difficult for my shins.  I'm still moving down in the weight area and my clothes keep getting looser.  Today is a break from all food restrictions and I'm just enjoying movies and treats with my kids.  I am finding that I don't actually want most of the junk I got for them though.  A few cheetos puffs and a few mini milky ways.  I did indulge in pizza and soda :).  Balance right.  I also struggled to get my 10,000 steps on Tuesday and Thursday but I still lost a pound this week.  I'm glad I'm staying on track this time which is good and feeling great.

New treadmill

Got to do my first run/walk on my new treadmill tonight.  It was awesome and I'm so thrilled to be back to it again.  I really missed running.  I also did the one mile walk away the pounds with the kids.  We are signing up for the Hamilton 5k on June 4th.  I'm super excited about that challenge as well.  My 21 day fix kit shipped... So really I'm going to be in great shape to get in shape.  I need to come up with a meal plan for next week so I can get my grocery shopping done this weekend.  I'm so confident that I will reach my goals this time it's scary.  I picked this picture today because I feel like this is the phase I've come to.  It's an addiction now and I want to keep getting more results.

First goal achieved

I reached my first goal of making weight (165) by May 14th for my Coast Guard stuff.  I'm super proud of myself.  I really feel like I've turned a corner.  I have confidence that I am going to reach my bigger goals this time.  I'm going to get healthy and fit.  I am excited, energetic, and ready.  My pants are getting looser.  I ran on the treadmill at the hotel this weekend.  It's a first for actually getting my workout in during a drill weekend.  I'm proud of myself for doing it.  Normally I beg off and just skip it.  But it's great to be moving.  It's been 4 weeks and I feel better and am still moving.  Which is great.  My next goal is to be at 155 by my two weeks which is June 27th.

Almost there

Saturday is the day I will get the stress of the CG off of my plate.  It will be nice to just focus on me and creating a healthy lifestyle rather than making a number on a scale for a job.  I'm going to work hard and get there.  I'm also looking at starting the 21 day fix.  Just trying to decide if I want to spend the money and if it's worth it.  It sounds like people are getting great results and the food choices are about making good choices with portion sizing instead of limiting and restricting which honestly just makes me crazy.  I can eat all the things I would normally as long as it fits in my containers.  If I understand correctly.  Also it will encourage eating at home more which is what I should be doing anyway.  So we will see.  It also has workouts which are kick butt I guess.  Beachbody workouts are usually pretty good.  Well I should get off the computer and get my workout done.

Fitbit

I have to say this is very true.  I thought the fitbit was just another gimick.  But I got one, and honestly will say that it has gotten me up and moving.  I have been finally dropping weight and working out consistently for over 3 weeks and I feel great.  So when I saw this picture on pinterest I new I had to put it on my blog.  I'm constantly checking my step progress and working to hit that daily goal.  It has shown me how much I wasn't moving and helped me start new healthy habits.  I even encouraged my coworker to get one and she is moving more too.  She also tells people how much it has helped her get moving.  So yes it could have ended up just another gimick.  But it really does help you get going.

Sunday end of week3

Feeling really good about my progress.  Feeling really good about my moving.  I got all 10,000 steps in everyday this week.  I'm at 6000 today and Sunday is my off day LOL.  But we have had lots of farm chores to do today.  I'm feeling like for the first time in a long time I'm going to reach my goals and lose this weight and get healthy.  Hubby bought me a treadmill, something I've been hankering for.  I think it's been 3-5 years I've been wanting one, because with three kids it makes it easier to get running.  And I love running.  It's a very basic entry level nordictrak but I'm excited at the idea of starting to run again.  I'm at the end of three weeks of working out consistently and the happy feeling is there.  Ya know the feeling good and happy feeling, the depression leaving the corners and flittering away feeling.  I want to hold on to this feeling and I really like that I can now start running, no excuses.  I feel confident I will reach my goals.

Outside walk

So I made cookies for the neighbor.  We walked the 1.5 miles to her house to deliver them.  Took the kids on their bikes and the youngest ran/walked with me.  I actually ran some of, as well as I could with a plate of cookies.  On the way back I carried my 35 pound youngest for a little over a mile.  I did try to run a bit LOL, but it was difficult to say the least with her bouncing too.  I feel like even though my weight isn't dropping as fast as I would like to see it, I am getting stronger.  I have more endurance and I have more energy.  I'm also sleeping better at night.  Those pounds will come off.  I just have to keep moving and trying.  Each day is a new day to try again.  To keep going and get to my goals.  I have 9 days until I will reweigh for the Coast Guard.  I am sure some of that stress is helping to hold onto the pounds.  And I have finals next week.  Math I'm not as worried about, but my programming class sucks.
All the pictures I post come from pinterst, I save them in my fitness journey folder and then use them here.

Another Monday

I'm still going strong.  I'm feeling good about still moving.  Getting m 10,000 steps most days.  I will be honest Friday I fell asleep on the couch with my youngest.  I was apparently very tired.  It happens.  But I'm feeling good about my progress.  Not sure how I am doing on weight since my scale is all wonky, giving different read outs each time I get on. This picture for sure shows how I'm trying to focus.