Same post over and over?

So looking over older posts and some just recently... I've said it alot that I was going to get moving... So the question really becomes, why will it be different this time?
Will I just quit once I make weight and am off the fat kid program?
Will I go back to being a fat slug?
Should I stop calling myself fat?  Probably but sometimes we need the truth to keep us moving.  What can I do to get different  results this time?
Motivational pictures all over the house?
Picture of current next to goal in the bathroom?
How do others stay motivated?
How do people keep from giving up?  Perhaps its time to take to the big world of FB or google and see what keeps people going... Because obviously I've said I was going to do this before... and failed.

To failures, and new beginnings!

I won't even try to make excuses.  I've neglected myself and my health for so long.  I keep telling myself that I will start tomorrow.  I know where I want to be, I know how I want to feel and look.  But I have such a hard time with the food part of being healthy.  I love food.  I also have an extremely busy life.  With 3 kids, a small family farm starting, 3 jobs (one being full time college), and a hubby that travels it doesn't leave a lot of hours in the day for me time and a lot of food on the go to try and get it all done.  But those are just excuses and I need to stop.  It finally all caught up with me last month for my Coast Guard weigh in.  I failed.  And now I have it hanging over my head.  It really stinks and is actually making me reevaluate my health.  I'm only 5'4", I shouldn't be creeping over 170 pounds.  I should be between 120 and 130 in all reality to be healthy.  And I shouldn't get winded walking 1/4 mile up my driveway :(.  My youngest fractured her tibia so I have to carry her everywhere right now.  I should be able to do this with ease.  I need to be strong and healthy to work my farm and animals even when hubby is gone.  I've let my depression and stress control my weight and eating habits for far to long.  I started this week.  I focused on just working out each morning, nothing to crazy just trying to get back into a routine and habit.  I did a walk away the pounds video each morning Tuesday thru Saturday.  Only 1 mile, but it's a start.  I bought a fitbit on Friday, so Saturday I set my 10,000 steps daily goal.  This week I will work on doing a 30 min video each morning and reaching my step goal each day.  I will also strive to make good healthy non carb related food choices.  If I cut sugars, carbs and soda I should make my 165 in May.  After that my goal is to be down to 34% body fat (per CG measurements/standards) by December 2016.  This will for sure be the hard one.  But I will measure each month at the start of the month, and I will work on it each day.  I will not make excuses anymore.  So I'm going to post each day, food, workout, thoughts and just keep a journal of sorts.  Maybe even post motivating pictures like I did before to help keep me going.

A small set back

Glad to be walking and moving.  Sadly I suffered a set back after my five miles on Monday.  I wore a new pair of skorts and chaffed my legs something terrible.  To the point I can't wear regular pants :(.  So I won't be walking tomorrow.  I hope that by Thursday I'm all better and can get out there again but worst case I will go Friday morning to end the week on a good note.  I'm also determined not to let this set me on a bad course.  I will keep trucking along.  I also found a 20 min kettlebell routine in my Oxygen magazine I'm going to try starting next week after I ride my bike.  I'm at least getting the emotional benefits of walking which is wonderful.

Walking

I started walking this week.  It has been great to get moving.  I leave at about 610 in the morning and I walk 5 miles with my neighbor ladies.  They go everyday and I am only going 3 days a week but its a start.  I knew my legs wouldn't handle everyday at 5 miles.  I hope to start adding a little running here and there to get that going too.  I'm really glad to be moving again.  Next week I will add more exercise and hopefully my bike into the routine.  Each week I will add a little more to get me back into the routine of working out and being active.  Now that we have started our farm it's probably a good idea to take some time and just unwind.  Plus I enjoy the quiet time.

Every 6 months

Every April and every October we have weigh-ins with the Coast Guard.  And every  6 months I stress and worry and barely make weight.  17 years of this is just to much, today I missed it by 2 pounds.  Now before April 11th I have to lose those 2 pounds or be on the fat girl program.  Can I do it?  Maybe....
But ultimately I'm tired of stressing about my weight every 6 months.  I need to dig deep and get my fat but moving.  I need to be at a point that I can walk in, get weighed and go home without having to skip dinner and breakfast the night before.  I want to just be healthy and at least 10 below my max allowed.
So what am I going to do about it....?
I'm going to get moving.  I'm going to stop making excuses.  I'm going to start tomorrow :) (its already 945pm) and I am not going to stop until I am happy with how I feel.  I will do yoga type stuff for the next 10 days until I get home and have all my regular workout stuff.  Then I'm going to clean up the jogging stroller and get moving.  Run/walk at least 3 times a week.  Get on my bike 2-3 times a week.  And find a weight routine I can do at home to do 5 days a week.  I know that I can do this.  Working out is only half the problem though.  My food is terrible.  Sure I know all the right ways to eat.  I know clean eating will get me there.  So why can't I overcome it...? Because it's an addiction.  Because I love sugar and bread.  So I am going to start slow.  Until April 12th I am in a hotel, what can I cut from my foods between now and then?  Sugar, that is a good one to cut.  Caffeine could go as well.  I think sugar, sweet treats will go.  No more candy or soda.  I will have to find a caffeine substitute so I can keep the headaches away since I can only handle so much at once.  After that I will set another goal.  I will just set little mini goals and keep moving forward.  I will take Sunday off from working out and allow a small cheat (not candy or soda).  I anticipate cutting breads again because I know I feel better when I eat more clean/paleo friendly.  It's hard but I feel so much better.  I will have one night a week that I allow bread either pizza or sandwich or rolls.  But that will be when I am home and can cook my own foods.  I was 162 today for work.  I don't ever want to see that number again.

Broken foot

So that bad foot turned out to be a broken foot.  So I'm on crutches.  I'm getting a workout just getting around :).  But I'm trying not to just eat junk even while on the road.  It's been a challenge but I'm doing ok.  Sweet tea is my biggest vice it seems.  I should get my cast off next week and be able to start doing low impact stuff.  I'm also busy with yet another move and starting our farm.  So I'm sure a lot of my working out is going to revolve around farm work.  And that is totally ok.  I'm going to start riding my bike in the fall and walking/running as the temps come down.  Plus as the temperature comes down my foot should be on the mend enough to start putting more impact on it.  154 isn't bad though.

Reminder to myself

I've set so many goals for my weightloss over the years.  All with the intention of reaching them of course.  Sometimes I feel like I let little things derail me. 
Moving, routines, broken foot.  Whatever the reason I'm not reaching my goals.  I actually should have stuck to blogging each night because it actually helped me stay on track.  Thanks to pinterest and a nice person leaving a comment it reminded me I could still use this and perhaps there are other ways than jumping jacks to lose some weight and feel healthy.
I'm currently sitting at 158 and not gaining which is good.  Although I'm on week two of sitting with my bad foot.  I bet pinterest has non impact stuff I could do to still get moving and feeling better.  Thanks for leaving a comment and reminding me to not give in to quitting :).