Every 6 months

Every April and every October we have weigh-ins with the Coast Guard.  And every  6 months I stress and worry and barely make weight.  17 years of this is just to much, today I missed it by 2 pounds.  Now before April 11th I have to lose those 2 pounds or be on the fat girl program.  Can I do it?  Maybe....
But ultimately I'm tired of stressing about my weight every 6 months.  I need to dig deep and get my fat but moving.  I need to be at a point that I can walk in, get weighed and go home without having to skip dinner and breakfast the night before.  I want to just be healthy and at least 10 below my max allowed.
So what am I going to do about it....?
I'm going to get moving.  I'm going to stop making excuses.  I'm going to start tomorrow :) (its already 945pm) and I am not going to stop until I am happy with how I feel.  I will do yoga type stuff for the next 10 days until I get home and have all my regular workout stuff.  Then I'm going to clean up the jogging stroller and get moving.  Run/walk at least 3 times a week.  Get on my bike 2-3 times a week.  And find a weight routine I can do at home to do 5 days a week.  I know that I can do this.  Working out is only half the problem though.  My food is terrible.  Sure I know all the right ways to eat.  I know clean eating will get me there.  So why can't I overcome it...? Because it's an addiction.  Because I love sugar and bread.  So I am going to start slow.  Until April 12th I am in a hotel, what can I cut from my foods between now and then?  Sugar, that is a good one to cut.  Caffeine could go as well.  I think sugar, sweet treats will go.  No more candy or soda.  I will have to find a caffeine substitute so I can keep the headaches away since I can only handle so much at once.  After that I will set another goal.  I will just set little mini goals and keep moving forward.  I will take Sunday off from working out and allow a small cheat (not candy or soda).  I anticipate cutting breads again because I know I feel better when I eat more clean/paleo friendly.  It's hard but I feel so much better.  I will have one night a week that I allow bread either pizza or sandwich or rolls.  But that will be when I am home and can cook my own foods.  I was 162 today for work.  I don't ever want to see that number again.